Monday, 23 November 2009

oh. my. GOD. JANG WOOYOUNG. WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME? *fans self*
CAN'T STOP STARING. :Q_________

23:17

Sunday, 22 November 2009

(this post will be yet another fangirl post because i am so friggin proud of my 2pm boys for working so hard and going through so much to finally reach the top.)

oh my god. words just canNOT describe how i feel right now. i feel so happy i don't even.. GAH. i can't even string my words together properly. i feel like a proud mother. 2pm have worked so hard and gone through so much this past year, they rightfully deserved the award, and this is without my bias speaking. really. 2009 was their year, no doubt about it. they've gone though the highest of highs and the lowest of lows.. from a generally unheard-of group at the beginning of the year, to the biggest act there is at the end of it all. all their hard work have finally paid off. my heart goes out to them. ♥

but to be honest, i genuinely didn't expect 2pm to win at all. i thought gd definitely deserved album of the year. 2ne1 DID deserve song of the year, but not for "i don't care" imho. fire would have been better, but i kind of don't really mind because 2ne1 have only been around for less than a year and they're already a huge deal. (what in the world am i saying? okay, i know i could have phrased that better but i'm sorry i can't really think straight right now. hah.) i really thought another yg artiste would win artiste of the year, no doubt. i could already see gd up there accepting that award. and even when the announcer said "two..", never did it cross my mind that it was 2pm. i seriously thought it was going to be 2ne1. but when he said 2pm. oh. my god. my heart. just.. oh my god. my hands were shaking and i couldn't sit still and the fact that wooyoung couldn't even stand up cos he was crying so much just killed me.

gonna go a little off-topic here, but i think the whole scandal has hit wooyoung so hard.. maybe even much more than the other members. wooyoung and taec are the only ones who have been on tv regularly ever since the scandal happened - as mcs on inkigayo, and you can tell taec is handling everything much better than woo. sure, they're both smiling, but you can definitely tell woo's smile is not as genuine and sincere as taec. he's smiling for the sake of his job and he's not as bouncy and bubbly as he used to be.
as an omona member pointed out, taec has generally more friends than woo does. taec's friends with baek jiyoung and bada and i bet a few more other people thanks to him being featured in their songs. so i bet he has had more support from more people. woo, on the other hand.. in an interview once, when asked about who his friends were i think, he said that the 2pm members are the only friends he needs (or something like that.) so i bet jay leaving has hit him really hard. he's been so moody and down the past 2-3 months. the 2pm boys probably spend more time with each other than most real brothers do, so i bet they care about each other alot and i'd feel really empty, or like there's some sort of a void if any one of them leaves if i were them.

their performance on mama was nothing less than spectacular. well, aside from the fact that jyp decided to show up and ruin the moment (and yes, this is coming from someone who's, well.. sort of pro-jyp. i'm probably one of the few out there who thinks jyp has handled the whole scandal well. but that's just my opinion. i'm still sceptical about jype though. but then again, that's just me.) it was still amazing nonetheless. khun with ivy was so LOL omg. ivy was practically shoving her boobs into khun's face. PAHAHA. heartbeat was good too. just that woo got too little camera time. HAHA. oh man why am i so biased? i'm glad junho's been the one doing the ending though. not that i didn't like it when it was woo, but, well, junho has to show what he's got! he's the best breakdancer in 2pm after jay, so he deserves the spotlight. and woo sprained his hand so i don't want him to risk injuring it even further. ): sigh... WHAT is it about woo that makes me feel so maternal? i care about that boy's well-being too much.
again & again was so effing amazing. ♥♥♥ i was watching the whole show with christine and wendy and they both started crying like nobody's business. i couldn't cry though, but i still couldn't sit still and i kept biting my nails throughout the whole performance. (bad habit when i get too emotional, lol.) during jay's part was just.. oh god. no words can describe how amazing it was, seriously. they actually didn't even use jay's recorded voice. and they dimmed the lights and shone a lone spotlight onto the empty spot where jay's supposed to be. that is just... GAWD. i am getting goosebumps now just thinking about it. i wonder what jay must have felt if he was watching that part. the love that the 6 members and MAMA showed to jay is just beyond anything i can imagine. ♥♥♥♥♥

winning best male group was enough.. no, MORE than enough for 2pm. i mean, going against big bang? and despite the fact that sm decided to boycott mama, suju practically dominated the year with sorry sorry so i still wouldn't have been that surprised if they had won instead. but when they said 2pm won, gah. my heart just exploded with happiness and joy and pride for them. and of course, thank you taec for mentioning jay. (and almost forgetting about joo, lol.) but woo started crying when taec mentioned jay. ):

okay, that killed me. like i said, i was watching it with christine and wendy and they were over at my place. and when they announced that 2pm won artiste of the year, the three of us screamed SO LOUD, christine said that my neighbour actually came in front of my door to see what all the commotion was about. (doesn't help that the tv was already on really really loud, haha!) i didn't realise this though.. was too happy and delirious to care about what was happening around me. HAHA.
but it was seriously really really epic. last year they didn't even win the new artiste award, and here they are, finally, at the top, winning the best award there is. woo crying killed me okay. i'm glad he did though. he must have kept all that emotion inside him for the past 2-3 months, that have been some kind of, as said by an omona-er, an emotional liberation for him. but still, it was sad seeing him like this. ): stop looking down, woo. keep your head up high. all of you have reached the top and you should be proud. jay is proud. don't worry too much about him and stop blaming yourself for not cherishing him enough when he was with you. he knows you care about him, now think about yourself too. ))):
and i'm glad taec was able to be so articulate throughout his speech. and taec doing that.. thing to indicate jay was with them was so cute and touching at the same time! :') lol, thank you reshma for pointing it out! junsu's speech was so heartbreaking. woo already tried to compose himself, but the moment junsu mentioned jay's name, he totally broke down again! T_T gdi woo, come here, i need to give you a hug already! and the thing chansung said to jay was the thing that totally made me bawl my eyes out. gahhh. the 2pm love is so intense. ♥♥♥

and of course, thank you sfm MAMA for actually using the promotional pictures from again & again instead of heartbeat. and thank you sfm for showing clips of jay when showing the nominees. i don't even care if it's a marketing ploy, it was amazing what they did. and 2ne1 crying and gd looking hella proud made it all the more awesomeeee. he had that exact same face when wonder girls won last year. the yg/jyp love is just.. LOVELOVELOVE. ♥

i've never felt so proud of the 2pm boys. they truly are the artiste of the year. 2pm definitely showed that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
2PM IS A STRONG BABY! (CRACK CRACK CRACK CRACK!) THEY DID VERY WELL MAN. DAEBAK. CHUKAHAAAAEEEEEEEEEEE! SARANGHAEYOOOOOOOO! etcetc.

and i just have to post this:

BEST FANCAM EVER. THAT GROUP HUG !!!!!!!!!

(bloody long post, i know.)

14:42

Thursday, 19 November 2009

that smile... perfection. ♥

02:27

Wednesday, 18 November 2009

i don't update this place as often as i used to. ): no thanks to twitter of course. oh well. HOW IS EVERYONE?

anyway before i say anything else..
HAPPY BELATED 18TH BIRTHDAY RESHMA!
HAPPY BELATED 18TH BIRTHDAY LIFEN!
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY RUOHAN!
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY LAAVANYA!

WHY DO I KNOW SO MANY NOVEMBER BABIES?
but we went out to celebrate reshma's birthday the other day! sorry if it turned out weird and awkward reshma! lol. and trust her to make a scene yet again, this time at bbq chicken. hahaha.
oh, and i haven't even mentioned the KARA outing.. and that was ages ago! okay, not really.. i remember it was two weeks ago because khai was complaining about how slow the internet connection in macs was that it took ages for ep10 of yb to load. HAHA. we walked down memory lane (lol) and spent three whole hours at pastamania. wow.
hopefully, if everything goes according to plan, i'll be going to the art museum with ann on saturday! (ANYONE ELSE WANTS TO JOIN?) i'm actually excited because i've never been there before and taking up Understanding Art made me understand art a little better, harhar.

that whole paragraph was really boring and pointless, wasn't it? being away from blogger for so long makes writing really awkward. i feel really awkward now writing this down in normal, coherent sentences. i've only been fangirling using excessive internet slang, hah.
i have a feeling those who don't visit omona but yet come on here will have the worst time trying to understand what i'm trying to say. AMIRITE? pahaha.

anywayyyy. this weekend will be a really busy weekend.
FRIDAY i have to ~~endure~~ sit through six whole hours of marketing (two hours of lecture, four hours of tutorials) and i can already foresee it being really annoying and boring because, so far, i honestly have no idea what i've been studying for marketing. the lecturer hasn't been making sense at all and he keeps talking about things off-topic. the tutor is just okay. although i don't actually feel like he's teaching though, but just.. telling us stuff. not good because nothing ends up in my head. D: but but but! i can already predict i'll have tonssss of fun after school on friday! FINALLY going to meet up with the 2pmsg oldies again since yujia is FINALLY done with her alevels. :D CANNOT WAIT TO FANGIRL SOMEWHERE OTHER THAN THE INTERNET.
SATURDAY i'll be going to the art museum!
SUNDAY i have to go to some family gathering which i'm not looking forward to because I HAVE SOOOOO MANY THINGS TO DO FOR SCHOOL AND I AM FALLING BEHIND. i haven't been revising the last three topics for all the subjects I AM GOING TO DIIIEEEE. and my mask! i haven't actually touched my mask even since i brought it home on the day i made it in school! IT'S STILL IN THE PLASTIC BAG WRAPPED IN A TOWEL, I AM SO DEAD.

hoshit, just remembered i have to find articles for my econs project. AND IT'S ALREADY PAST MIDNIGHT AND I'M ALREADY SLEEPY.

and yessssss, i told myself to try not to mention 2pm in this post and i succeeded! been talking too much about them on here. HEHE.
(no, talking about 2pmsg didn't count.)

23:52

Friday, 13 November 2009

2PM's thank yous on 1:59PM album..

Nichkhun: "Last but not least, our 2PM members...even though we have lost one of the biggest parts of our lives...Jay...wherever you are..know that we couldn't have gotten this far without you.. we always hope that you are well and healthy.. and we're always missing you... hoping one day we can all sit down and laugh at what had happened in our lives... until then, WE WILL make you PROUD."

Junho: And finally. Once we think we are family, it is an eternal thing. 2PM, Jay Junsu Khun Taec Wooyoung Chan, whatever may happen. We are 2PM. whatever people say, we are 2pm forever. yes we heard so many words. But, we've got to stand tall. To tide over a crisis, guys show people all the things what we reorganized!

Chansung: And finally, Jay Junsu Taec Khun Wooyoung Junho Chan. All 7 members, Let's get all the way together! Although we now part from one, but, I believe that we are together. We are now 6. But will be seven soon. I will wait. Don't give up J.

Wooyoung: I am afraid that whether I often did not realize the importance of you. My bros. I feel always shame and sorry...you stand by me, really thankful and thankful bros. 2PM.

Junsu: 2PM babies, Jay Khun Taec Woooyoung Junho Chan, I love you all

Taecyeon: And finally 2PM! Jay Junsu Khun Wooyoung Junho Chan, we can overcome this hardship. 2PM Fighting.

and this is why i love my 2pm boys sfm. their love for each other is amazing and so intense. ♥ i hope jay reads their messages and smiles. (:
CANNOT WAIT FOR THEIR ALBUM TO ARRIVE AT MY DOORSTEP.

02:09

Wednesday, 11 November 2009

SO FREAKING AWESOME OMFG SDFKJBSDKFBSLKDFJBKSLD !!!!!!!!!!!
i know a lot of people are going all DNW at this mv (and let's just see them change their minds after a day or two when 2pm has their official comeback stage. ;D) BUT I LOVE EVERY SINGLE THING IN THIS MV, OMG. okay, maybe besides the ponytails, because i'm still going wtf at those. but i see that they're channeling wooyoung's deg hair SO I STILL APPROVE. sort of.
BUT YES ANYWAY. THIS MV IS LIKE AN EXPLOSION OF AWESOME OKAY. i don't even think the song is as bad as everyone is making it out to be. heartbeat's my favourite song off their album.. well, after tired of waiting and i was crazy for you. but still, shut up about the awkward rapping! i loved them! :D the intro was really cool imo, what with all of them "coming back to life". and taec looks schmexy with that ponytail. (not feeling his other hair though. looks like he got pooped on by a bunch of angry pigeons.)
BUT OMFG WOOYOUNG IS SO SEXY IN THIS MV OMG I DIE EVERYTIME I WATCH HIS PARTS. SOMEBODY GET HIM HERE AND GET HIM MARRIED TO ME ALREADY. ILHSFM. HE SHINES SO MUCH IN THIS MV AND THE WHOLE BLOODY ALBUM. AND HIS HAIR, OMG. LOVELOVELOVEEEEEE. HIS VOICE MAKES ME GO ALL WEAK IN THE KNEES. AND THE ENDING! THE ENDING!!! THAT 360 DEGREE TURN AND THEN DROPPING DEAD. I THINK I DROPPED DEAD AT THE SAME TIME. /corny.
junsu would have looked so much better if he hadn't permanently damaged his face. D: STILL GORGEOUS THOUGH, BUT GIVE HIM MORE LINES, JYP. he's back to being the adlibs guy again. T.T khun = LOLHAIR. and i think he's only rapping ~~badly~~ here because he's covering jay's parts.. right? idk. but khun rapping is awkward. junho, get rid of that ponytail and i'll love you forever. not like i don't now, but you know. oh, and chansung is permanently chansUNF now for a reason. ;D
AND THE CHOREOGRAPHY FOR THIS SONG IS AMAZING! AMAZING, I SAY. i thought it was cool with the whole zombie-on-drugs thing, harhar.

shame jay can't be with them here though. i mean, sure they're amazing in the mv and all, but i like imagining him being in the mv as well. ))): they look so awkward and incomplete as six people. but the choreography for the song looks like it's easy for them to add one other person in though. did that make sense? idk. but even the pyramid they did.. i'm hoping/wishing/praying that during their comeback stage, jay will suddenly appear from nowhere and go to the top of that pyramid and do some badass flip down and then do some more mindblowing b-boying at the front with all the pyrotechnics going crazy with the fire and sparklers and everything. and then BAM! he'll show his friggin abs and everything will be fine and dandy.
GDI i need to stop getting my hopes up too high. D:

i wanted to write about some other non-2pm stuff here as well since i haven't been on here much, but i don't feel like it anymore. hah. goodbye, going to watch the mv for the millionth time.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

20:23

Tuesday, 3 November 2009

HAVEN'T BEEN HERE IN AWHILE. i've been too busy trying to keep up with school and twitter and kpop and family and my dwindling social life. oh, and sleep. SCHOOL, KPOP AND SLEEP IN ITSELF ARE SO HARD TO KEEP UP. D:

school has been okay. ups and downs as usual. at least i'm trying to make it a point to actually study during the weekends by getting my butt off the house, so this makes me feel better. :D but.. the people i study with are all ending school and their exams are all almost over. DDD: NOT GOOD. ANYONE ELSE WANTS TO BE MY REGULAR WEEKEND STUDY BUDDY? i'm begging here. i am atrocious at studying alone or at home. the airport's still the best place to study for me. ;D
but on the other hand, socially, school is such a nuisance. well, i'm not referring to every single person in school of course, but some people.. omgggggg. just chillax and stop pointing fingers and look at yourself in the mirror. you're talking shit about others like as if you're the friggin princesses. i can't stand people who assume things just based on what they think/make up instead of basing things on true facts. and learn to work with other people already, omg. not everyone has to follow or listen to you and your ginormous ego. grow up.
oh, and hello? i exist. stop ignoring me just cos i don't understand the language you speak.
OMG I NEED TO RANT. IS ANYONE WILLING TO LISTEN TO ME RANT? I DON'T CARE IF YOU JUDGE ME, I JUST NEED TO LET THIS OFF MY CHEST. FJKSBDFKJBSDKFKBSDF.

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finally met up with annette today after MONTHS. sheesh. we used to go to starbucks every weekend. but today was good because we finally caught up and talked. a lot. and i know she probably doesn't even come here, BUT HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY. ;D
october and november are so full of birthdays. DNW TO GET BROKE. i've been trying to save up since school started because i didn't get ANY pocket money AT ALL for the six weeks of school break and used up all my bank savings till i was left with less than ten bucks. D: NOT GOOD! and i still want to go to canada after poly. i should seriously get a job.

2pm's comeback is making me all jittery. ): the teaser they released yesterday sounded so beautiful and it broke my heart but at the same time make me so so so so so excited (understatement of the century) because wooho's voices sounded so so so so so amazing. but the full song they released today is a little D: because of the crazy amount of autotune they used. ~~some of~~ THE MEMBERS OF 2PM HAVE BEAUTIFUL VOICES, DON'T HIDE THEM WITH ALL THE AUTOTUNE! ):
but then again, i've had it on repeat for the last 4 or 5 hours. ha. ha. jyp(e)'s such a mastermind at playing around with fan's feelings. i'm confused now and idk what to feel anymore. but still, CANNOT WAIT FOR THE MV. AND THE THIRTEENTH. I NEED TO SEE THEIR NEW LOOKS NOW.
and junho bb, don't think i'll ever forget the fact that you PROMISED to take off your shirt by the end of this year. YOU STILL HAVE TWO MONTHS, I AM COUNTING ON YOU.

lol, my two biases/otp are the only ones not wearing white.
\o/

20:44